That was supposed to be my status report
@ned
(LONG POST WARNING,)
Thinking of starting over again or just canning this idea, when I first started this in openbor Doom was already 10years old.....Doom recently just had it's 20th birthday.
I have a cool 'MOD'.... a cool doom game I do not. Seeing the speed of progress happening in other mods lately, I'm just pissing in the wind with this thing. There's so much that should/could be done for this game, to be half assed is pointless. The thing I started years ago was just a novelty/experiment, the old bor couldn't do much. Current openbor is so powerful now that I feel like what I had in store for the updated version is just, well..... it's lame.
I felt was making good progress learning scripting before lavalit went down, but most of the info I was using back then is now gone.
I'm stuck using an old openbor because the script wont work with anything past openbor 3742 (forget what version exactly), which is now itself over a year old. Most the stuff on this forum is based around new scripting methods that I can't even try. but I understand enough script now to understand that my stuff sucks anyway. I spent a year at lavalit just catching up on the engine, after 5 year break a lot of info was new to me but already outdated.
I have no professional background in games, coding or anything.
Everything I know I've taught myself and picked up from always messing with and modifying games.
I will always work on this thing thou because it's fun. I honestly don't play commercial games much at all, so all my gaming time is openbor and other game/engine modding. I swear I have not played through a commercial game since before the year 2000.
Anyhow didn't mean to have such a long post, but my point was I've had all plenty of free time to work on this thing for nearly 2 years, and still getting nowhere. Sadly I don't think I will have that kind of time to spend as much anymore, and the will is fading. Often if I have time but I don't have the mental energy to work on code etc. Example this weekend was spent playing a few gigs back to back plus a few nights practice during the week. Factor in my sleeping disorders and I'm pretty brain dead right about now.
Just sharing my pain with ya Ned I guess, cause I know you get frustrated too
(the rambling continues, I cant sleep tonight)
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I've always played in original bands, I've studied sound engineering, I'm a musician at heart. But the music I like is commercially dead, it seems plenty of people still want to hear it, and buy it, but it's not what big business wants to work on. It's all about highest returns for lowest risk these days. (for example under today's conditions no one would sign bands like Guns'n'Roses or Nirvana, too much risk)
The video game industry is the same now too.
At times I've worked in various forms in the music industry, as a performer, sound engineer or just general laborer.
And thou it's a soul sucking monster of hate, I keep playing in bands and working in music, because part of me still has the passion for it.
Even thou I can't imagine really wanting anymore to be part of the industry that's around now. I don't just mean that as a musician or artist but working in the industry in general...
More and more everyday I'm starting to hate video games and the industry itself.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtHMkPmmeLA
Maybe we should give up and just make some lame flash games, maybe we can even cash in

Good fan games are likely to just be shutdown with a C&D pretty quick in the coming years, IMO.
Seems there's no room for creative people in this world anymore.....
I'm just going to make a game about cats :
