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AlexDC22

AlexDC22

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yeah the title is just really better than what i really wanted to put there... am gonna share something that ive only shared with only one person here cus hes a good friend and without knowing me welcomed me back with open arms 2 years a go.... but recent events have me feeling like... fuck it.

jan 2018 3 days after my birthday, my wife the mother of my 3 kids passed away, that was in wisconsin.... 2 months later i was in florida with my kids trying to forget the nightmare that just happened.by 2022 i was 450 LBs due to depression from what had happened and with all my other back surgeries and health issues i had to had bariatric surgery in jan of 2022.aside from trying to remake my life and trying to give my kids a new mother figure... and even losing over 200 lbs... my body kept breaking down...since late 2022 till today... i have had 2 knew surgeries, 2 shoulder surgeries. and 2 intestinal blockages with hernias on both due to the bariatric surgery i had.now this past friday was my 3rd intestinal blockage with yet another hernia...when you hear america is the land of the free? know this.... only if youre white but mostly rich...which am neither.

every time with the intestinal blockages i have to go by my surgeons hospital only... and during the day and mornings theyre the best.... but night time comes and the doctors on call do not care to pay attn to their patients needs when it comes to pain and what works best for them....the first 2 i managed to correct them with surgery.. this last one i started friday and got transferred to another further away hospital to tell me it was just kidney stones issue and they put a stent on my pennis, a plastic tube with a string attached to it and stuck it up all the way into the kidney and thats supposed to let the fragments of the then laser destroyed stone pieces pass on through easier...they said i was good to do..

monday i get discharge and a few hours after getting home i had to go back to the ER because my stomach still hurt like crazy... they do yet a 3rd CT scan of it and now they say i had pankriatitis or whatever is called...i had to get to my bariatrics hospital yet again cus it was related to it they said...i waited a day and on that wait i get calls from my bariatrics dr er saying i had to come in because i had another blockage...something that the other hospital did not inform as they just told me Pancreatitis...now am there and they do another ct scan and now the blockage seemed better and the hernia magically fixed itself... no joke.night comes same issues with asshole doctors who dont care..my fiancé had to track the bariatrics cell number and call him at his home at 11 pm to have something get done about the issue...next day which is today... they wanted me to stay till saturday to get more test done and promises no shortage of pain medication...not even anhour goes by this morning and all the pain maids they promised where apparently meant for night time...rest of the day till night time was literally Tylenol.so i left.. in pain like crazy atm but at least they will not make money from my misery. i do hope the doc was right it gets better on its own without surgery... but will never know as am done with the medical systems in florida...the worst ive every experienced in the 47 years ive been alive. sorry for the long rant... just get tired
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and last night... my oldest brother from wisconsin just passed away ... so when it rains it pours.... sorry for the book i just dumped on anyone who cares to read...

am so fucking angry and mad at the one so called god who lets all this shit happens not just to me but to children and the likes... ugh... so fucking angry
 
I am sorry that you lost two people dear to your heart and I hope that you were able to pay tribute to them properly.
I wish you to be well cared for and to overcome all these health problems now.
Often our physical health goes hand in hand with our mental health: what do you currently think you can do to get better?
Know that you have all my support in the difficult times you are going through.
 
Sounds like you've had a lot to deal with and still dealing with, Hopefully soon things will start going right for you and you can enjoy your time a little better.
 
Sorry friend, I've never been a good soothsayer. All I can offer is hope things turn around, and we're here if you need to vent.

DC
 
Sorry to hear about your losses, and I can tell ya, I know where you're coming from, I've lost several of my family members over the past few years, 1 of them just a month or 2 ago, and 2 years ago, a cousin of mine was murdered over what I an describe as the most Jerry Springer shit you can think of.

For as the medical institution, I've ben schooled recently about how much of a scam it's been in the past century, I mean the whole thing, having to get a degree and study for years just to practice, was all put in place just so certain people could make more money. I'm not kidding at all. And Land of the free, you right man, it aint for those of us who aren't white or rich, but man it goes way deeper then that, not to dissuade from what you said, far from it, but our entire society is crazy by design. It's ironic because for years, I've ben listening to underground rap music including sound bites literally saying how blood would be running in the streets if we really knew what was really going on.

I wont go that far here but reading everything you just said, man, makes me think of all the things I've been learning on my own and the people I've lost, and the whole time, I just keep right on modding because I don't think I've got a choice, otherwise it's like, what was the point of going through all these things and suffering all these hardships for, even those that come before us. It's crazy man, but the best thing I can say, keep trying to live your life and improve yourself no matter what or who says otherwise because we can't keep suffering and slaving away on other people's dime, especially those who claim to help us when they're just takin advantage of us.

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I may not know you Alex, but I'm very sorry to hear that you lost your wife and brother, It's terribly heartbreaking to lose the ones you care about. I mean I lost one of my uncles five years ago from lung cancer, and I am still sad that he's not here with me and my family anymore, but i believe that his spirit is still there to give me strength to move forward. But I pray that you will overcome this ordeal and i hope your life will get better soon Alex. 😢
 
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I'm sorry for your losses, brother. But we're here to support you.
I hope things get better for you soon, stay strong 💪
 
Life is so hard, I hope you are well and living well. Life goes on eventually, stay strong for the sake of your children. We are different ages and different countries, I just wanted to say that the children's children will have children again, and although there will be hardships, there will be good things that will happen. Some years ahead of you, you and the people you value will be witnessing all of this together, memories and family are with you.
 
I'm very sorry for all that happened to you and important people to you.
Hard to stay strong in such moments.
 
@AlexDC22

the 2020´s have been a crudshow for many people, all i can do is root for your side of things to get better,
night-time has weird effects on people and inflammatory weirdness happens at night for some, so the key is to combat inflammation as much as you can.
Be well.
 
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so here i am on a post i thought i was done with.. fiance had an accident, car totaled and shes still in the ER getting tests done... like FFS when will this year end smfh
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Sir, I read your initial post and you have my condolences, I was going to mention that you try to get back into the mindset where you took charge of your life, loss all the weight etc.

It's a big ask since people have their limits but as men we have to shoulder it for the sake of others but don't forget about you here.

I prefer to face my situation is the best physical and mental state possible so I'm striving for that since no one can do it for me.
This should be attempt if you have the means to, bouncing back from hell ain't easy.
I've been through similar situations and context is important here.

Know that your post is about events that took and currently taking place in your life so even if you never return to it, events will keep on happening and that goes for the rest of us.
It's always good to vent but I'd prefer you speak to a counselor who can offer proper guidance.
Me, personal I tend to brush off most of the advice these people tend to give since I'm looking to confirm if my approach is beneficial to me and this is shit I won't say to them.
I just smile.
Work wellness programs tend to help in this aspect.
I'll just go through the channel to tick off a box where I don't have to say shit like,
"I should of spoken to em"
So I speak from experience and won't suggest things I haven't given a shot in my own life.

The older we get the more we prone to forget things and we could do with a reminder now and again.
Hope your spouse make a speedy recovery.
Stay strong.
 
well thank god shes just bruised up nothing major... but while an eye witness said she was not at fault... the sheriff shows up at the hospital to give her a ticket cus it was her fault even tho the undercover cop who hit her, was speeding/ on a turn lane with no signal on because he was using that lane to speed past all the traffic.. yes it was a cop who struck her...3 lawyers so far have decline to take on the case.. including morgan and morgan... they dont want to go against the cops... you cant make this stuff up i am at a loss, very frustrated and just mad...

ive had way to many bad experiences with talking to professionals to last me a lifetime, so i will never go that route ever again... to be honest venting works well for me, specially in this community full of great folks... that and just diving into refining ATOV and or anything photoshop...i just want 2025 to show up already :(
 
my stepson took this video..the cops said this was a low impact slow speed hit? thats why it spin the van and also totaled it... right
 
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Hi @AlexDC22 . I'm sorry to hear that you're going through difficult times. Unfortunately there's a saying that goes "when one comes, they all come together", I hope that life soon smiles on you and yours. Believe me when I tell you that I have very nice memories of you, of Daimon Caskey @DCurrent , @Mr.Q! and many others from when we were in Borgeneration, Borrevolution and Lavalit.
Friend, have faith that everything will improve and that good times are coming. A hug from Chile.
Gabo-Hanzo
 
here i am yet again... but now will be the last...least i hope so cus i cant just continue this string of shit happening to me... so after totaling the only vehicle we owned... this morning she decides to tell me that shes leaving me..out of the blue she just up and leaves... didnt even say good bye to my son who has grown to love her and call her mom...... like really is there a god? cus i really could use one right about now...i dont know how many more shit sandwiches can be forced down my throat... ffs am only human... and now i have to deal with the mess she left behind :'(
 
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